~ swEet senSatiOn ~

oh yes! i feel the sudden rush in entering another stage in my life. soon i’ll be stepping out from the teenage world! alas! more surprises to come my way as i feel the pressure of bein’ 20!! haha… that’s more like it, fun & interesting!

hmmmm…. indeed, there’s a lot of compliment and at the same time criticism in life that i need to tolerate. some say this and some say that…. wanna know some? i’ll give you an example:
    compliment remark:
            "hey really? mag-20  ka na? grbe how nyc baby face pa rin…"
    the other way around:
            "di nga? mag-20 ka na? shocks i thought 15 ka lng…"

haha, akalain nyo yang mga comment na yan, haha kakaloka dba?… oh well, ganun tlga, kaya usually i’ll just give them a grin, pro lyk the second comment that i usually hear from others somehow made me realize a lot of things.. i usually end up thinking "if only…." but what can i do? i guess i just have to get used with it.. haha… whatever they may think of, ayos na ako… haha.. wala na me pake, so long as i know that they find me cute!! hehe oh diba, ayos na yun!! hehe… kaw whatcha think of me? bawal hurting remarks!! hehe Just kiddin’…

i hate it when he glimpse at me;
i hate it when he looked at me;
i hate it when he smiled at me;
i hate it!

i hate it when he asked about me;
i hate it when he look for me;
i hate it when all he can do is just stare;
i hate it!!

i hate it when he’s hesitant;
i hate it when he’s gutless;
i hate it when all he can do is look down;
i hate it!!!

why can’t YOU have all the courage to come close and say your intent?? why why? what’s bothering you boy?!

this is written because im hoping things will change,
hoping that "someone" who really can’t do anything manly but to "gawk" will be gutsy!!

at last! school is finally over! no more projects, no more pop-up quizzes, no more annoying guards checking up on our attire, and of course how would i forget, no more educator who let us do the teaching stuff instead of her doing her job! whew, finally, i won’t get to see her anymore yes! (except for coursecard day *sigh*)… haha!! =) still, im free… yeeeeesss!!! although, i have to say that i’ll surely miss the people who already become part of my college years, friends, nice professors (not all, hehe) and of course that "someone" =)

the thing is, a new challenge that i would be facing is the… training experience… *gulp* how do i feel about it? hmmm… well, i guess scared but excited to face the real world after school =)

let me feel the encouragement and the support that i’ll be needing y’all *wink*

what should i do? everytime i feel bored, i jst cant stop searching for food, whether it’s healthy or not, streetfood or whatever! sweetcorn, penoy, junkfuds, biscuits!!! errrr…. ders ALOT 2 eat really!! this feeling can’t help me maintain my normal body weight any longer! damn!.. i feel hopeless, tired and FAT!! *sigh*

everyday routine can’t give me pleasure… =( no changes, as always, darn! i wish every single day will be very unusual and somehow special … =)

today, i still have to go to skul and grrrr… waste of tym in writing a reaction ppr for our final exam… but the problem is, i cant seem to get my butt outta my chair! HeLp Puhleeessss? ^^ oh well, tym is running fast, as fast dat i couldn’t imagine…. wait….. am i late? what?? darn! 1 & a half hour 2 go and im still wearing pajamies!! … haha… oopsie i gez i have to get ready 4 school now..

till my next post y’all *wink*