~ swEet senSatiOn ~

Close friends of mine kept asking how am i after "dec 22"… h0nestly speaking, im still in the process of mending a br0ken heart, why its taking me so long to be fyn??..  cause by "selfless love"

we’re simply torn apart.. it hurts, it rily hurts,… im moving on, il move on, il be fyn! jst have to deal with the pain and get up again…

There’s only a single truth behind every one’s heartache: "LOVE hurts when GOD knows we deserve someone else, someone who HE prepared for us.." so no matter how much pain i am still bearing, i believe the past shouldn’t hinder my happiness to get up again to look forward to the bliss of a perfect companionship!..

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let’s have balance in everything…
let’s just say i may have a broken heart "as of the meantime"..
i am still thankful that i am blessed with what’s happening in my career,…
working my heart out to learn more, explore more, and to achieve more =)
meeting new friends in the industry sure makes me excited, chill with them, the laughter, the sungit-sungitan over da phone makes me wanna go to work every single day.. it’s lyk luking forward to new challenges, dilemmas, although it gives me headache (at least not another heartache) all SMILE pa rin!!! haha…

wait wait wait!… excited excited very excited as i am feeling tonight… what am i anticipating tomorrow at work??… GOOD news from my boss!! ooops won’t disclose it muna, gosh i hope i wont get any butterflies in my tummy tom.. haha.. il kip u posted in my next entry kng anu ung cnsbi ko.. hehe..

gudnyt!!!
ciao!!
just chiLL…

^^,)

wats new?.. haven’t given you upd8s l8ly huh… been busy lately, adjusting, heartaches, headaches… "been there done that melai!".. sigh.. lyf s0metyms sucks esp. wen sme pipol try to pull you d0wn, disc0urage you instead of giving enc0uragement.. why is that?!.. c0me what may! i’ll never be a loser c0z of pipol hu try to erase me! s0rry, im a fighter, well d0n’t worry i’ll give you no harm.. c0z im harmless and full of l0ve.. just can’t tolerate stinky attitude!.. one phrase my pal.. " God bless you!".. are you sure you are okay alone?.. having super few c0mpanions with that attitude?.. well if you do, Goodluck.. sna you’ll change for the better.. it’s for your own good yah know.. don’t let pipol h8 you bec0z of your attitude… change my friend change… jst a friendly advice, c0z i simply care.. i rily do… =)

wohooo…. hir i c0me!! 12 hrs 2 go & il be away for long…  so excited as its not only abt dealing w/ new friends but its also coming close to my belief, to God, quiet tym sessions! =)…

dis song is for u!! (knw hu u r!) haha..:

All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin
Its early morn
The taxis waitin
Hes blowin his horn
Already Im so lonesome
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause Im leavin’ on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Theres so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
I tell you now, they dont mean a thing
Evry place I go, Ill think of you
Evry song I sing, Ill sing for you
When I come back, Ill bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause Im leavin’ on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
Ill be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I wont have to leave alone
About the times, I wont have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause Im leavin’ on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But, Im leavin’ on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

*well nt h8, i actually love to go =) drma lng ung kanta! hehe"

here i am, having a hard tym adjusting.. bum mode for awyl, at last my burden days r over… no regrets.. i made da ryt decision.. no more irritating old crazy man customer enc0unter.. it irritates me alot.. tel u wat, da last tym @ w0rk i had dis encounter w/ dis errrr crazy man! h8 it rily! enaf of being patient abt it, i cant take dat moment!,, at last i cud go raise sme br0ws wenever i want to especially if i cant control it nymore.. luckily i got so mch patience dat tym, it was my last day, & sh*t dat guy.. as if his funny but he’s noT!!! God bless him! very cl0se, muntik n tlg… at dat very m0ment, i ddnt care hw il burst since it was my last day so wat if il get a complaint.. f it weren’t for my colleagues at dat tym, if i werent concerned abt da st0re’s reputation i myt have answered bak 2 dat old man’s craziness!

tym chek: tic tac tic tac!!!.. 11:43pm na.. shet! dati 9pm, im already sliping w/ my mouth open!! haha kiddin’ aside… naku, plssss bring bak my normal sliping tym.. huhu… im stil havin’ a hard tym adjusting!! tpus, fo sho 2morow kalahati nlng ng day maabutan ko ksi im off frm work tpus umaraw man o umulan dun lng ako sa kwrto sarap ng 2log!.. hai…

"dnt wori melai, konti nlng,… & ul be getting enaf slip na lyk u used 2 have.. =)"… tic tac tic tac.. (jst bothered as i luk at da tym..) & hir i am stil wasting tym c0z i cant slip.. no 1 2 tok 2 at dis hour.. bored.. restless! wat else! shet!! sigh…

aun, e2 lng! tnx 4 reading dis nonsense!.. so damn bored lng c0z cnt slip!

another year just started.. and i just couldn’t imagine why am i feeling the pain.. pain that is within me.. how sad it is to get sick twice in this first week of January.. a goal that is stucked in my head ryt now: "bring back the nutrition melai!".. hehe… i feel so skinny and weak.. though im taking my vitamins already (not everyday though c0z i keep on forgetting it once in awyl).. well jst nided some1 to make me kulit abt it.. haha..

i realized that its not dat gr8 to have that sexy b0dy, good shape that would let people turn their heads wen u pass by but hey! it’s not pretty good after all! wats da catch of achieving & maintaining dat gr8 hot body if ur body itself cant handle it.. anything that is not enaf isn’t gud after all, no fats, ewww… skinny, not huggable.. hehe.. no vitamins, gudluck! lack of rest, haller, can’t function well.. and so on….

hmm wat els?.. im just pressured ryt now with a lot of things, this year means
big responsibilities c0min’ my way.. jst have 2 surpass it! well i knw i can.. mELai dnt jst give up, th0ugh its gonna be rily t0ugh & challenging that’s f0r sure!.. hehe…

i love my work so much! it maybe tiring but im a survivor!…

it would definitely be gr8 if u could undrstnd hw much it means alot to me… you jst have 2 bare with my schedule… c0z ive got no control over it, no choice…

"understanding" is ol im asking… no demands pls!… balance is definitely perfect, bt sorry cant chus my sched so wats left for me & u is my free tym… but if u cant bare it any longer, fine.. jst silently fade away.. walk out of my life rather than staying & demanding things that are impossible!…

after such a long tym, hir i am agen, updating myself to everyone… i still couldn’t imagine that finally i have already graduated from college… nevertheless, im so proud of the achievements i have acquired with all the hard works i’ve went thru.. *sigh*… the next stage of my life is the "working stage".. im a bit stress.. working rily hard, tutoring at the same time, il just have to put an end in my tutoring career! hehe… focus with my top priority as a barista! hehe… il be working hard on it, achieve and have goals to be able to hve a successful career path..

hmmm, wat else?.. aun.. so far.. dats abt it… i may lack sme "ai ching" bt never wil i give less happiness 2 da 1…=) ahaha anu??.. naguluhan aku dun ah! hehe.. bsta un na un.. hehe… sakit ulo ko sooobraaa…. hai….

oh i hve 2 cut dis short muna, visit me @ Sbux friends! hehe… support!! hehe… mis u all… mhcs friends, csb friends… & 2 my former colleagues! hehe…

ciao! …

a lyn from a song: "your love completes my existence" awww… s0 swit isn’t it?.. hehe… its nyc 2 be inluv lalo na if its for real na!! haha… la lng, jst wana create a post 2nyt! so bare with me readers if u fil lyk ts c0rny, simple: just cl0se da window!, hehe.. bt sorry 2 say, u jst visited my blog so u probably can’t resist it, so jst finish the entire entry owkie?! hehe…  so sit bak & READ!! =)

its lyk ive bin m0re blessed 2 receive such blessings dis past few days… ive g0t an offer or shud i call it sydlyn b4 rily w8ng 4 a ril job after grad; then ehem para tener la inspiracion!! hehe oh isnt dat gr8?! of c0rz its more than gr8 yah know.. hehe…

i fil being 20 isnt just lyk being 19!! its more dan wat i xpcted! and its really really awesome! great experiences, challenges, love(hehe), & of c0rz hardwork that made it extremely un4gettable!

oh well, til hir 4 now… got to get m0re slip 2nyt… zZzZZzZzZZz…. hehe…

au rev0ir!

… something is rily bothering me, something unexpected just pop up and i can’t stop thinking that it might be true and i just have to stop the foolishness i’m feeling!… how could this happen agen?.. everything seems so perfect but why all of a sudden someone just have to ruin the bliss of satisfaction?! why?!?!…

…h0pe this is just a dream, a dream that when i wake up wouldn’t make me feel the pain anym0re.. but then everytime i recall the incident, it just hurts me so.. *sigh*

… looking @ the bryt side, i gained something from it! =) eat & be merry! i just went out to have a new haircut today, to bring out the happiness and swept away the sorrow! Cheers to a brand new start agen!

          la sonrisa para aliviar fuera el dolor!